I'm switching my blogging activities to tumblr. It's better for small posts as well as big, and I always come upon just quotes or songs that mean a lot to me. I want to be able to post two or three of those a day sometimes, without it seeming like too much. Tumblr will help me out with that. It's not just a technical change that I'm after either. I feel like I'm going through a big change right now and I want to start over. I have a lot of good and bad things in here, but I just feel like at least the ones before the last month, aren't quite me. I mean they were obviously me, I did them. I'm not necessarily a better person, just different. Hopefully better.
You’re always on your knees
Hating your own stupid head
Telling everyone everything
about absolutely nothing
the real you’s swept under your bed
If it’s not going to change
It might not be that bad
Learn to accept yourself and know
I mean everything I’ve ever said
You’re not your own pain
Not a burden or a deadly sin
Think what you want, we’re still here
Mistake yourself for a mess
If you need help, we’re all in
Hopes not working out too well
Not when what you feel’s
making your own private hell
I know it’s got you in a bind
and I know you just want out
Believe me, people need others
At least that’s what I’ve learned about
You’re not your own pain
Not a burden or a deadly sin
Think what you want, We’re still here
Mistake yourself for a mess
If you need help, we’re all in
Everything you’re doing
It’s not doing anything
You need to take your cup
and get off your knees
Learn to breathe
It's weird that my dad is getting married in 21 days. That's right, on new years eve. I don't know if i mentioned that part before. But it's not like people have anything else to do then, right? I'm supposed to stay at my aunts for two days after, but I'm going to try to see if I can find something else. I don't think he realizes how ridiculous it is to try to make me stay in Sandy on new years eve. I guess I'm going to have to go to the wedding, but I don't support it. I'll just stand behind everyone silently loathing. At least it will be early-ish and not very long. They have some sort of consciousness of the fact that it's new years. I've started to get worried about being able to get out of here. No matter who promises me a job, it never seems to pull through. I always say I'm going to go apply everywhere, but then the car is gone and/or has no gas. Hopefully I can tomorrow, but I'll see I guess. It's also annoying because I haven't really been able to get anything at all for the past few months. I know I should be more concerned about other things, but it'd be nice to have new clothes, or to be able to go and eat with my friends, or to be able to just buy people Christmas presents. Oh well. I just have to apply at more places and someday I'll have money.
I'm blogging at eleven in the morning, which is kind of weird for me. I have a lot of homework to do though, and if I don't blog now I'll do it later to procrastinate. I don't even know what to write about right now. I just know I haven't blogged for a while.
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