This entry was going to be somewhat insightful and dare I say...awesome? But because of what I've been doing for the past hour I changed my mind haha. I don't think it will come as a surprise to anyone that I have been trying to write songs for the past two months or so. Today I was watching Gabe Bondoc videos all day and decided to try to write similarly. It actually worked for me. Before I post these lyrics I just want to say that I never, ever, ever write like this. That's now contradicting because I just did. But you get my point. I normally criticize people for writing ridiculously sappy songs like this. Now it's my turn. I did this because I had the inspiration of Gabe and it worked. I have all the music part done for the verses. So in one day it has come along very far.

First I just want to put a little disclaimer on this entry. It's going to seem like I am posting this to debate Cameron's last post. I'm not though. We all have different experiences that give us different outlooks on life. His last entry just gave me the idea and the feelings for this one.

In his last entry Cameron talked about "constants" or family and friends(sometimes) that are always there for you. Good definition I think. For me though, I don't think I've ever kept a constant for as long as I expected or wanted to. So far as my experience goes everyone will leave you eventually. It doesn't matter if they leave this world, if they go somewhere, you go somewhere, they change into a whole different person that you don't like, etc,. No one is constant. Change is the only constant. The only person that will always be there for you is yourself, so you better be able to get yourself through anything. Yes, I have had people help me through things. It helps a lot when other people help you. For the most part though I've had to talk myself through nearly everything to get out in alright shape. Your soul, your will, your everything has to be strong enough to get you through anything. You have to learn to take these losses to be able to make it through life and be emotionally strong. Maybe I'm just emotionally not there, I don't know. Anyway, I think that I've experienced a lot of the nastier sides of life that a lot of people I know haven't. Maybe all it takes to turn you into a cynic is experience. Again, I don't know.
Have a good day.

So recently I was inspired of AJ Rafael's new song/video to start writing the music portion for some songs. I have enough lyrics for like twenty songs, but half of them are poop so I'll have to edit and choose for those. Back to what I just said though...what I've written so far musical wise is a lot better than I thought it would be. It's coming to me easier than I thought too. I expected to take an hour to be able to put together maybe one good intro. In an hour though I was able to put together about five different variations of one. I have no idea what one I like best though. When I hang out with some friends I'll have to play all of them for them and see which ones they prefer. If they can stand it. I think for nearly everything I write I'll end up consulting my friends to see if they think it sounds good. So they'll definitely play a big role in whatever it is. I know I sound really naive as if everything I write is going to be the best on earth. To me it will be, but I don't expect other people to even like them. I'm just excited that I'm doing something I like.

This is a little side rant relating to the blog I posted earlier about being too plain. I think another reason I'm too plain is because I have nothing that makes people think of me. When I say that I don't mean like a color or something as ambiguous as that. I mean there's nothing that I'm the best at out of everyone I know. I do/have done a million things, but i've never been the best or even super good at any of them. I've wrestled for ten years, and I'm definitely not a natural wrestler. So I've worked my ass off for all ten of those. There are still kids that have only been wrestling for four that can beat me. I also consider myself somewhat smart, but I'm positive that I am not the smartest out of all my friends. Even with looks! I'm not disgusting, but I have some friends that could have any girl they wanted. I've done/am doing parkour, guitar, lifting, gymnastics, acrobatics...ish, etc., but even with such a broad spectrum I'm not really good at any of those. Haha, I just thought of this, even with video games people beat me. I'm not too sore about that one though. I just wish that I had something that I could do and be the best at. Then when people thought of that certain thing they would think "Yeah, Dylan is the best person that I know at _______."

i wrote this silly little blog about all the people who i find inspirational. 
and i read it again today. 
and the part about you was still very true.
and i know we aren't as close as we used to be, 
and i know things have changed, that we have changed,
but i still think you are strong and wonderful and inspirational.
not sure why but i felt like i should tell you but i did. 
i think i'll always hope that you are ok.

This blog will be a nice change. Yesterday I hung out with Josh and Carlos for a while. We went to Gateway Mall so that was pretty good. I got new shoes and was able to finally get away from the normal Vans. I got Nike's. They aren't colored like the rainbow though like most are, just black and white. I like them. After that Carlos and I went bowling with three other people. It was actually pretty fun. I won the first game and took dead last the second game haha. Horton did really well the second game though. 185! After that Carlos and I drove around for a while looking for something to do, but people were being dumb so I just took him home and then went to sleep.
In other news I started a twitter account today. I feel like I'm going overboard on the whole online social networking things. I can't help myself though. I need something to boost my ego and make me feel like people care about what I do. Even if only two people follow me haha. Also, I need some friends that play instruments. Playing acoustic is fun, but I do it all the time and sometimes it's just too quiet and intricate. I need something where I can screw up ten times with no one noticing, and still have lots of fun. So if you can play guitar, bass, and/or drums you should definitely leave a comment. hmmm...anything else...I'm getting pretty close to beating Pokemon Platinum. I have six badges now, just two to go. Then I'll be a Pokemon master. I am also dressed very awkwardly right now. Well, awkward for me at least. I decided since I got Nike's it might look alright if I wear these pants that I accidently bought too big. I guess it looks alright, but I just feel really awkward in baggy pants. I don't think I'm going to do it again. This weekend has been pretty eventless. hopefully next weekend will be better. I get to spend Tuesday doing another dance and homework. That's the best.
Have a good day.

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Today was pretty good.
I played Pokemon.
I need someone to make me go to school.

Nylon strings suck.
Pokemon The First Movie is the best.
Coffee always makes me feel good.

MASTER RACE!
Tina padded her dress.
Four shot all day.

Bowling tomorrow?
I'll beat pokemon.
I won't do anything productive.

I can never get what I want.
wtf@Bryson
I must be doing something wrong.

I've got romantic ideas, but they're not meant for you.
I don't really even care if i'm alone now.
I'm butter on a summers day when she's around.