But you try, and you try.

Sunday, August 16, 2009 by Dylan


To jump straight into the blog, the last week or two have been better than the ones before. I don't mean that everything is fine now, it's just better. I'm not complaining though. Any sort of improvement is great. I've been doing more things that I normally don't. Like hanging out with a lot of people. I like it because the conversations we have when we sit around become a lot more varied, engaging and different then I'm used to. I can tell that I'm doing everything a little different even by what music I've been listening to. Yesterday I listened to Circa Survive, and today I'm listening to UnderOath. It's not that I normally don't like those bands. I just haven't listened to them for a while because I haven't been in the mood. Now that I am, it means I'm in a different mood.  This is definitely a good thing, because school starts in almost exactly one week. I want to feel good, so that I can do well.

I think another source of this change is me getting a better grip on me. Haha that sounds funny. Before this I constantly either had a girlfriend, was chasing one, or was being chased by one. For this whole summer I've pretty much just been taking a seat in that whole area. It's made me become more aware of how I talk to people, and what I do. I didn't like it, so I didn't feel that great about myself. Now that I've had more time to subconsciously change how I act, I can feel alright about me.

One more thing before I close this. A few entries ago I said I was going to try and write something that I actually liked a lot. I think I did it. It pretty much describes how I've felt for nearly this whole summer. It's like everything I've wrote before, all thrown together. I guess the best way to describe is that if I actually recorded everything, this would be my single.

I’m so sick and tired of my own skin

I need what I want

Give me something I’m comfortable in

All this routine makes me cringe

I’d eat anything that meant

but I’m on a strict diet of thin air

The rain never comes

but the clouds won’t go away

I’m drowning in the vapor

and the frustration of it all

We prefer to wait

we’re never really feeling

I used to pretend

it’s not a big deal at all


I’m a broken puzzle

Nothing fits this piece

Looking back I had it coming

If I loved it, it was going

It’s all on me


I’m finding a new ground

People that are happy

they never look around

I’ve been craning my head for months

and being alive has lost it’s touch

You always make it better

but yesterday you made it

you made everything wrong

No one ever told me

No one had it all along

My clothes are wearing thin

Give me something I’m comfortable in


I’m a broken puzzle

Nothing fits this piece

Looking back I had it coming

If I loved it, it was going

It’s all on me


My seams come undone

Blind, deaf and dumb

Everything’s gone numb

blind, deaf and dumb


I’m a broken puzzle

Nothing fits this piece

Looking back I had it coming

If I loved it, it was going

It’s all on me


Looking back, I had it coming

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1 comments:

Cameron said...


Eff dude, get recording already. Haha.

August 16, 2009 at 2:18 PM  



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