I make promises to myself that I won't do or say certain things; making me a better and maybe more morally strong person. I do this in the hopes that these things will improve my life. Or that they will be balanced out by karma, or a deity, or the stars, or something like that and maybe a few good things will be thrown my way. Nothing has happened. I feel the same. I'm not sick, but I'm not well. Blah, blah. The promises are done.