In the last couple days I've come to terms with what's been keeping me down. Myself. I know it's obvious but the hardest part of realizing that is knowing that you can make yourself feel better. Normally it's "I know I feel bad, but that's how I feel and I can't help it." Wrong. I know you can't just flip around your mood. But getting better depends on how you deal with it. You can choose to wallow in it and make it worse, which is what I've been doing. Or you can try to make it better and improve whatever it is. I don't have to punch holes in my wall. I don't have to listen to depressing music. I don't have to hang out by myself all day. I wish that I would have came to this conclusion a little sooner. I tend to see what other people are doing, and learn from them. This is usually good because then I don't do whatever it is wrong that they do. Sometimes it isn't though. I don't like it when my friends are like this, and I have trouble figuring out myself what I need to do. I'm not sure what else to say now. I don't really feel better, but I know I can try a lot harder to make it happen. Hopefully this is the first step to ascension.

Have a good day.